happenings.

yet another large gap between writing. oh well. i guess you could say a lot has happened in that gap.. i had a boyfriend for a hot minute, decided that was a terrible idea so i ended it. it's kind of funny how slapping a title on something that was totally fine to begin with will fuck things up. i told myself from the very beginning to not raise my expectations just because he's now my "boyfriend", to keep things exactly the same as they were before, aka casual. maybe i just needed the title to secure exclusivity? who knows, i can't say i didn't know from the very beginning it wouldn't be a really long-term thing, but was just the natural progression of how things were between us it seemed.

luckily things between us are totally fine now, nice and back to normal. he turns 25 on sunday, which would be cool if it wasn't the day after the 2 year anniversary of his dad's funeral. i can't imagine losing a parent, how absolutely heart-wrenching and awful it would feel. it's hard enough watching someone else suffer from it 2 years later. all i can do is be there, like i always [sometimes very frustratedly] have been.

bonnie, my dog of almost 16 years is fading fast... my mom just wrote a blog about it with pictures of her and everything. she has dementia and is losing muscle control. poor girl can barely eat, although the vet says she's not in pain. i NEED need to get home soon to spend some time with her and my parents. i miss non-work friends too. whitney, sarah, kate, michaela, chadly... it's those people who keep you sane sometimes when you spend your time with people you work with and talk primarily of work.

the apartment search continues, although i'm pretty sure i'm going to move into jay's building on denny and dexter. hardwood floors, practically downtown, next to a gas station, liquor store, 24-hr subway, whole foods, the market? golden. and i'm living ALONE :) the only person i'd live with is whitney. period. that was flawless, although i think it's important to experience living on your own, see what kind of a roommate and how responsible you really are. i already know i'm not the easiest person to live with so i can cross that off right now.

scratch the big screen tv. i am debating whether or not i even want cable. i'd rather get a massive monitor :) ok enough about my apartment dreams, i'm going to a coffee shop because for some reason i have been awake since 6:30am and it's 9:43 now. disgusting. since when are sunrises something you wake up to as opposed to taking a hint that it's time to go to bed?