organizational woes.

yesterday and today were days of organizing my life. figuring out what i'm doing right and what i'm doing wrong, looking at what i need to change to make it right.

things i am doing wrong:

-spending more than double my rent's worth of money per week.. on nothing long-term.

-not actively looking (hard enough) for a design job

-drinking too much

there are more but nothing i'm going to delve into at this point. the money issue is the biggest one for me, although that's directly related to the amount of alcohol i choose to consume. seriously though, i started keeping track of my tips and everything, and i made over $650 in 4 shifts in tips alone. how much cash do i have on my person? like $150. ridiculous. i should be a millionaire by now if i had been even slightly NOT retarded... fired amy, fired.

in other news, i applied for a credit card yesterday (mildly ironic seeing how i have money issues), but i need to build my credit, and i get 30,000 miles through united airlines with the first $250 i spend! i've had a credit card before and never had issues with debt or anything. i guess that's how i end up justifying the amount i have been spending.. i'm still, by far, completely debt-free. i mean i haven't used my debit card in almost 3 weeks except to pay my phone bill. i just want to kick myself for not saving all the money i just wasted getting wasted. i just signed up with mint, which is basically a free financial advisor that helps you budget and monitor your spending. umm, yes please? commence save mode now. check it out. ok, enough about money. promise.

i saw an ad on craigslist for a design position at a place called fine art digital printing. PRINTING! that is definitely my medium of choice, as opposed to web. i'd love to get more experience with video though. i need to update my web portfolio and write a cover letter, but i meet all the requirements they listed, so that could be really exciting if things start to work out for me.

i need to buy a new camera. i'm currently sitting in muse, a coffee shop a couple blocks away from my house, and they have photography all over the shop. plus with photoshop and everything, how cool would it be to go on walks and just take pictures? or of friends? i'm talking artistic pictures, not facebook ones.. i know, look who's talking. i just want to get "back in the game" and not stay sucked into the service industry black hole, as fun as it can be.

ok, good pep talk. time to re up.