advice for the loveless

I don’t know how many people one must form a seemingly valued relationship with that, of course, both assume to be mutual. Oh, but what easily-deceived creatures people are. Skepticism has become a primary force of defense against this popular little habit, resulting in lack of ability to trust, become vulnerable, and ultimately love. There is always that one person who one assumes to be an immune to the disease which infects the flood of individuals searching for true love; that one person who convinces you to let your guard down and trust them, making the ever-popular promise to “handle with care” your fragile and naive heart. However, it is experience which molds us and the tragic heartbreaks that, at the time seem to lead to hell, we simply put up another wall around the emotions so humiliatingly exposed by the ordeal. For months after, they consume your thoughts even more so than when you were “in love”, this time you find yourself not being able to remember the last time you genuinely smiled since then, and wondering who they have moved onto and obviously found complete happiness with, or someone as foolish as you were to toy around with for the time. You knew the whole time you should have kept the wall they sweet-talked to pieces with each false “I love you”, for they are nothing more than words to you, nothing is anymore; words as shallow as the promises they made you, and the loyalty they swore to you only. Oh, the truth in the saying “love is blind”- words which, unlike the majority, have substance and have reigned true over centuries. The fairy tale love stories seen in the movies one can only dream about, for that is all they are- fairy tales, unable to come true. The safety and security I once felt in your arms is gone, for I am unable to play with my own emotions or rip my own heart to shreds as I watch myself in torment and pain. Trust should not be a commodity given away freely upon request, but something to strive for over a period of a lifetime through not words, but undying respect of the fragility of another person, and the selflessness proven to them through unconditional love. That, is something to think about.